Concept | April '20

Home, at last.

We’re entering into this new month unlike any other before it; in our homes. We’re safe, protected, and hopefully surrounded by those we love most. For those who are outside of their homes at this time, my heart extends to them. Their courage is a testament to a faith in humanity that is undeniable.

But what will April bring?

This past month I’ve found myself asking, what is it we all really need right now?

More so than ever this past month I’ve felt sad, exhausted, overwhelmed and defeated. This sadness rears its head every morning, and sticks around into the night tempting my mind away from rest and slumber. It creeps into my day-to-day and infects everything I seem to work on, souring it for a few moments before it vanishes again and leaves me feeling empty.

I know these types of platforms are meant to “distract” and “inspire”, however I honestly can’t sit here and do that. Nor do I think that’s what we need right now. We’re living through something that is rare, impossible, and so incredibly overwhelming that it would be a disservice not to speak about its current impact.

So I don’t want to pretend like its business as usual.

I don’t want to curate a list of “fun pieces for spring”, because it honestly feels like such a shallow thing to do right now.

Instead, I want to write down exactly how I feel–in hopes that if even the chance someone feels an ember of similarity–they’ll know they’re not alone. And so April will be a month of honestly. It’ll probably get a bit weird, maybe even a tad ugly.

I’m focusing on controlling what I can in my personal sphere–our home, the food on our table, the simple joys of day-to-day. I’m cooking whatever my body feels like. I’m sleeping more–and am trying to move my body when it feels like it. I’m doing my best right now–and that’s okay. I’m grateful for this moment, because to be honest–that’s all I’m certain of.

April, be well.