New Around Here
About a year ago I started this blog. (Wow!) I was yearning for an outlet to inspire A creative Calling, and serve as a place for me to exhibit a sense of greater purpose. This blog has become a place where I pour my heart into work that truly is meaningful to me — and hopefully it’s also impactful for you.
Over the past few years I’ve been really struggling with identity, sense of purpose, and figuring out exactly who I’m meant to be. It became easy to get a little lost as years passed. I increasingly felt like I was being swallowed by this thing that is our “day-to-day”. A few larger events sparked a heightened sense of anxiety deep within me, and completely shook me to the core. I found myself living in fear of things that ultimately would never happen. Yet to an anxious mind, they felt like my tomorrow. When you’re in a cloud of anxiety and fear, it’s so incredibly hard to even begin to fathom that not only will it be over one day, but that these thoughts of self-doubt that are circling in your brain are more prevalent today than the common cold. It's so real to feel anxious and fearful of the unknown — these are the day-to-day roller coasters that we all go through.
It’s imperative that A balance needs
to be struck between
the things in your life that
you cannot control,
and feeling empowered to
change the things you can.
My journey has definitely not been linear, and I think that is really important to acknowledge. We are so programmed to think that there is a beginning, middle, and end to things — we forget that sometimes life doesn’t follow that narrative. Since starting this blog, I’ve hit lower lows and higher highs. I’ve learned so many things about myself - I’ve seen a therapist, spoken to mentors, and opened up to family and friends about these struggles.
However the most important thing I’ve learned as this journey with anxiety and fear has unfolded, is that a balance needs to be struck between feeling a complete loss of control, and being empowered to change what no longer serves your best interests. Sometimes this change can be difficult, and for me it was about letting go of a routine I thought I needed and couldn’t survive without. I was fearful of the failure of giving something up, and letting go of it because I wanted it to be so much of my identity. I loved what it stood for, and what it branded me as. It was something that worked for so many people, why was it not working for me?
I’ve come somewhat to terms with what felt like self sabotage, and instead realized that it was a form of change that I really needed in order to grow. Our bodies operate in seasons, and we’re not meant to do the same darn thing year after year after year. We’re meant to be living, breathing, growing humans who experience shifts and our rhythms are meant to change with those shifts. For me, this meant growing beyond the mentality that I “couldn’t” do something, and realize that this was my time to learn how to live a different way, and find something that uniquely works for me.
I’d love for you to come to this blog and be inspired to make similar changes. My goal for this platform is to create beautiful and impactful content that motivates you to live well, full, and to your uniquely best ability. Soak in your sense of purpose, and hunt for it in even the smallest of areas if you haven’t found it yet. I’ve learned to never stop searching, learning, reading and practicing. Your space is there, and it’s waiting for you — don’t be afraid to take it up.
The next chapter of this blog is full, and I cannot wait to pour my whole heart and soul into work that hopefully sparks even the smallest ember of inspiration for you.
xx K
